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So I haven't posted in quite awhile. There really isn't much to say. I've been going to school...still have A's and B's (thank god), but things didn't work out with Joey...and I had a boyfriend, but I ended up breaking up with him. Now I'm not really looking for anyone, and I'm perfectly fine with being alone right now.

Another boy, from band...kissed me. I'm not so sure why. But he did. Other than that, nothing really happened...
That's that.

So I go to bed last night at 3 am...
shortly after volunteering myself to give my floor mate and her boyfriend a ride to the airport...
at freaking 7 am in the morning.
I wake up at 6 am.
Three hours of sleep...woohoo *sarcasm*
And when I go knock on their door at 6:50...
to tell them I'm ready to go when they are...
turns out I was their wake up call too.
So now I'm waiting.
Tired as fucking hell...
for them.
Blah.
And it's not like I can take a nap later...
cause my final is tomorrow...
so Nikki (lucky girl her) will be studying for that all...day...
*wants to not take her final*

O...M...G...
I'm so fucking happy!
I just went on a "date" with Joey.
Well lemme start at the beginning, lol.
I went to the practice room today, to practice my clarinet.
While I was there, he came knocking on the door, and came to try to help.
Then he left and I saw him again later, in the Jazz room.
I walked in, and we were talking...
then he was taking a nap, cause he hasn't slept for like 72 hours, or something like that.
Then henry (a clarinet player) came to help me out with my audition piece.
And he offered me private lessons (So excited!!)
Anywho...
That was at like...4ish...
and then I forced Joey to walk with me back to my dorm, cause it was like 6:30 and we had to be at Hotstock at 7.
So we went to my dorm, and I changed, then we went to Hotstock (that's where the HOT plays for everyone)
Well afterwards, I was driving him home (he doesn't have his liscence yet...he's getting it soon though), and he asked if I was hungry.
I said yes.
So we went to Applebee's.
I was gonna get a burger...something cheap (I was having a hard time with the fact that HE was buying...and it was like...7 dollars)
He wouldn't hear it.
I really wanted a steak...
He told me to get it.
So I got steak and shirmp (13 dollars o.O)
And he paid!
I was like...Too....expensive *twitch*
So I consider it a date.
He doesn't because he wasn't "dressed appropiratly" or whatever, lol.
Our date for next weekend is still on though.
Which is good.
he wants to go somewhere fancy....
like dress upish.
I'm gonna have a heart attack over the price.
Then I drove him home.
And I ended up watchin Me, Myself, and Irene, instead of playing Halo2.
He ended up falling asleep at like 1am, and his mom showed me out, lol.
She's super nice. ^.^
I had fun though, left a little note on his computer...AWW I know...shush, lol.
Well I''m off to bed, I gotta study like all day tomorrow.
Blah not looking forward to that...

Sooo...
Yesterday...
I studied for like an hour with Brenden.
Then he had to go to class.
So I went to take a nap.
Then at 5:30 I went to the Sympony band/Wind Ensemble concert.
It was great!
(Hopefully I'll be up on that stage next semester! ^.^)
I saw Joseph, and Scott and said hi to them.
Then I went in search of Joey.
And I found him.
And I got a bunch of hugs. ^.^ *loves hugs*
Annnd then Scott and I went to go get food...
then we went to the hotel
to watch KKPsi, SAI, and PMA perform (they're all singing faternities)
And I saw Joey again.
And I got to hang out with him, and hear him sing, and more hugs. ^.^
And...I'm guessing a lot of people in band are starting too realize that Joey and I like each other, lol...
All the hugging or Joey saying, "Myyyy Nikkkki" to John when I said hi, wouldn't have ANYTHING to do with it.
No...
not at all.
Lol.
I didn't get to talk to him on the phone though last night, minus like...2 minutes.
He was going to sleep, which is perfectly understandable, he only got an hour or so of sleep two nights ago.
Pssh, I went to sleep anyways. Lol.
Tonight is Hotstock! WOOT!
That's where the band goes and performs the whole entire season.
Like, some stand tunes.
Some hiphop songs.
All of our show music.
It's gonna be awesome!! I'm excited.

I realized I haven't posted in awhile...but I'm not really sure what to post. I guess I'll post the basics:

Scott doesn't like me. (my crush)
I'm fine with it, surprisingly.
I have a date with my friend Joey from band on Saturday(next Saturday).
I just got off the phone with Joey at 1:40 after talking to him for almost two hours.
Joey's awesome. (Sweet, nice, funny, sharing of the same interests as I do, a musician (drools))
I have finals on Monday.
I've been working on my English project, and studying for Sociology.
Studying with Brenden tomorrow after my last class of the year (minus finals).
I think I'm going to pass with 3 Cs and an A this semester.
I'm going to Alabama on Dec. 21st, for band.
I'm coming back home on Dec. 24th.
I'll be 19 on Dec. 30th.
I might have to take summer again, in order to get my GPA up to a 2.75 or risk failing out of college/losing my scholarship.
That's about all.
I'll update more later.

The carnival was fun. I went to the Broward County Fair with Josh, and his friends. I got my face painted, and what not. It was great. I loved it. I spent most of my money, and now I'm offical broke. Then I went to his house and played the Wii, then I rubbed it in Brian's face, since he doesn't have one, and won't be getting one until the next shipment comes in for Christmas.

Then yesterday I got my hair cut. I don't have pictures of the cut just yet. I'll take some later. I'm at Ashley's now, and I have to today, and I have to head back home, a 5 hours ride now, and then do my sociology paper since I still haven't done it yet. Why? Because I had like three papers to write over the break. I wrote two so far...and I haven't even started the third. Looks lik I'll be up really later tonight doing it. Oh well, that's okay. >.<

Wel, I really don't have a choice, now do I?

So yesterday was Turkey Day, and so far so good. Food was delicious, drinks were delicious, parents were behaved, and I dyed my hair. Well, my mom dyed my hair, but I purchased the dye. I'm a brunette again, darker than before though.

My mother and I have reached the 72 hours time period, yet so far (at least as of last night) we are still getting along. I have yet to speak to her today, and probably won't until late today since I'm going to the Broward County Fair with Josh and his friends.

I'm sitting her alone in my house. Drinking diet coke, and eating my daddy's delicious spinach dip right now. I want ice cream...or more pie, but I must control myself from devouring it all. Tempetations are many under the Woistman roof. Potato candy, buckeyes, chocolate chip cookies, peanutbutter cookies, pecan pie, apple pie, pumpkin pie, and many many many forms of liquor. I'm trying. So far so good (minus the spinach dip.) Let's hope I can hold out.

So today is so busy. It's not even funny. This is the first time I've had a break all day (minus breakfast). I had to wake up at 8 am in order to go take a shower, and didn't blow dry my hair, which means I might get sick again. Yeah me...

Oy, after my shower, I had to go print out three copies of my essay (that was still 100 words short >.<), and then at 9 am I had class. Class was easy though, just peer review, and I learned that I wasn't the only one who was short on words. Someone had less than a hundred. Then I had to go take my shots, and what not, and then Sociology. I was going to skip, but my friend threatened to take away my roleplaying for the day if I did, which made me sad, so I went. Class was about sex, which was great...until we watched a video on sexuality after 65...Talk about barf central! They showed some 70 year old woman with a 20 year old...and...they showed some other old lady in her bra and underwear changing. It's so gross.

I smoked a cig after that...I needed one...I really don't want to go home.

Now I'm in the library waiting for 12:50 because I have to go see my teacher so she can grade my paper, so I can go home today. -sigh- Oh well, then a long ass drive.

On a good note...I'm going to go visit Jen for Spring Break. I'm excited. I can't wait for that. She'll be in her 8th month of pregancy, so she'll be ready to pop any day. That's great! Haha. I can't wait. My mom said she'll buy me the ticket for a Christmas present.

So it looks like I'm going home tomorrow, leaving after I get my rough draft graded by my teacher. I'm looking forward to it, yet not at the same time. I mean, sure I want to go home, and see my friends, I need a hug desperatly from some old friends (a.k.a Josh, Ashley, Danny, etc.) but I'm not looking forward to the after party of the 72 hours getting along with my mother time period. It happens each time I go home, 72 hours of getting along, then wam, bam thank you mam, it's over, and we're enemies again. I always do something to screw it up, and I never realize that I do it, until it's done.

I am looking forward to meeting Ashley's new boyfriend though (who is coming down with her), I get to hug Danny on Tuesday...and I get to see Josh one day. I don't know which one though. He owes me Taco Bell though, lol.

I was debating on getting a tattoo while I was down,b ut decided against it. I nee to go see the guy anyways, considering my ear piercing is infected and it hurts like a pitch.

I'm getting a haircut...no ideas how I want to get it done yet. I want to dye it. Wonder what color...

That's about it.

Castorilla was awesome! Lol, completely great. (PS. It turns out Liam was a jack ass, and just wanted me for his own fun. >< Oh well)

On a differet note, yeah it was great. Got some pictures, and what not. Had a blast, danced, ate (a little). My mask won 2nd place ^^, Scott bought me dinner afterwards, and then I ran into my friend Lisa who bought me ice cream. ^^ I LOVE IT! 

Tonight I'm going to Castorilla. I asked Brenden to go with me a while ago, but he can't go. I contacted Liam, but neither can he. On the other hand, my awesome friend Scott said he would love to go. ^^ So he's going as my 'date'. I'm not sure if it's a date, or if it's as friends (he's bi...so I'm not sure how that works).

Oh well, I'll find out laters.
^^
I'll update with pictures (possibly) and details laters!

-Nikki

We won the football game. 27 to 10. Which means we're going to the bowl game. Which one? Not sure yet.

On a different note. I didn't eat before I went to the after party...and I went to the party, and drank five shots of vodka (perhaps more), and five beers. I was wasted. I did my interview on Henry (for a paper) while I was drunk. It's hilarious because like 4 drunk people and him were figuring out questions to ask. I was smoking the hookah, but he had to put it away -sob-, so I asked if he was going to smoke mroe at his house, and he said yes. He being Liam (this kid in band). Well, I went to his house (apartment), and we were smoking more in his room. Then we stopped, and then he was rubbing my back, and my stomach, it felt great. Well, after twenty minutes of that, I looked up at him, and was like, "This might sound weird...but...will you kiss me?"

And he did. Then we started making-out (yes I broke up with my boyfriend.), and so on and so forth.

Well, we ended up going further than that. His hand was down there...then his mouth. But that's all I'm going to explain since I know some people don't care. OMG...it was great! (I'm still a virgin, don't worry, lol)

Well, at like 6 am, we fell asleep. Then I woke up a few hours later, dehydrated from drinking last night (oximoron? lol), but oh well. The whole time anything was happening he kept asking if I was okay. I would say yes, and then he'd keep going. I'm happy right now, waiting for him to wake up so that he can take me back to the dorm before he heads off to work.

Isn't as glamorous as I had hoped. I've broken up with my boyfriend, since he's a jerk, I needen't go into it any further. I've been dubbed the mayor, and what not, basically I'm the assistant RA, which means I'm getting practice for becoming an RA next year. That's where the problems start. I liked band, though it takes up a lot of my time, it's fun and next year if I become a section leader I make 600 dollars for the term. However...I want to become an RA next year, which has training during the same time as band camp (at least the second week of training is during band camp) the week before school starts. As an RA I get a single room, and pay the double room fee, however I get paid to be an RA. Enough (plus a few extra hundred) to cover the room and whatever. If I become an RA, and my grandparents still pay my dorm fees, I can use the money I make from being the RA to pay for my dorm in the summer (a 1500 dollar value) so I don't have to commute back and forth an hour each way. During the year it's 3,500 dollars for the dorm.

Another plus, I've been looking into online colleges...since I most likely won't be majoring in Graphic Design at USF, since my father isn't to pleased with that, and because I was thinking of doing criminology. Thanks to my grandfather he sent me the link to an amazing (really cheap) online college where I can get my Graphic Design degree in two years for under one grand! If I say up that money from the RA job, I can pay for it myself, without my parents knowing about it, and my dad flipping out. I can't use my debit card because he knows every cent that I place onto it, and take off of it. And since there isn't a bank of america anywhere near by, it's always being taken off, and not put back on.

So yeah, hopefully it will all work out. The RA looks like a better deal, plus no Saturday things in the way, and I can get a job as long as I work under 15 hours a week (which is fine, just work on weekends.) So yeah...I don't know how this will work but hopefully it will.

I'm taking next summer off, and I'm going to attempt to work full time in order to save up some extra cash. If I pass this year I'm getting my bike in the summer (excited!) and what not...a boluvard motorcycle. Similar to this:

Except used, and perhaps not that color, a 900 - 950 cc or something like that. ^^ I'm excited!!

Tim's party was great...I got drunk, haha. I had like eight beers, and quiiite a few shots of vodka. I remember some of it. I know there was weed there, but I didn't smoke any, nor did I smoke any cigs. Robert got to come along, which was fun, we were in the hot tub, making out and what not. He attempted to go further...he almost succeded, but I came to my senses, and stopped him. I don't...I wanted to do something with him, but I didn't. It's strange. Ah well. We left at like...7 am, and Tim drove us back to school (us being a group of people who live on campus. Jose, Tim's friend, took Robert home). I crashed at 8:30, and didn't wake up until 5 pm. Then I went to Hallowscream that night at around 7:30.

So Hallowscream was a blast. God, though...I'm such a scardy-cat. I got to meet up with Ricky (a kid I practically grew up with.) I've known him since I was little, but we haven't seen each other in awhile. He's Brian's age, but he's a sweetheart, and hilarious. I was latched onto his arm almost the whole night, because I was scared shitless. We went through Club Muse...and OMFG...I almost had a heart attack. Seriously. God. >< Anywho...we went and played DDR after that and I owned both of them (Ricky and my brother), and then I owned Ricky at the shotting game, actually I won a free game. ^^ Sweetness!

They were both being really nice, they tried to win me a Shadow the Heddgehog doll, then a bugs bunny. Then we ran out of money, so we just walked around until 1:30 ish and we had to leave them. Brian bought us ice cream. I exchanged numbers with Ricky, and we're most likely gonna hang out again soon, which is nice. He doesn't live that far away, so it's not that big of a deal. I still have tokens for the arcade, so we'll just go there. We're losers, going to Bush Gardens, and we're going to be going to the arcade. ><

Anyways, I got home around 2ish, and crashed at 3 am, then woke up at 1pm. I'm screwing up my sleeping cycle...really badly. Ah well. I wanna go back to sleep. Maybe after my homeworks done.

Mid-term was decent...at least I think I did okay. Yesterday I dropped Astronomy. Hooray! Let's see...what else. After my Astronomy class I went to my room, for a bit. I don't really remember what I did yesterday. It wasn't very important, lol. I think I watched South Park a lot. At...11:30 I believe I went to go get some food, and I did laundry a lot, and cleaned yeseterday. That's right. Anyways, 11:30, I went to get some food. Ran into Scott, hung out with him for a little bit. Today...at 5 pm we're going to protest against this bitch Ann something or other. Geez...she's...Gah. I can't even explain it. I'll post a link for her anti-facebook group in a second: http://usf.facebook.com/group.php?gid=2208750469

Anyways...then I went home, and ended up crashing at about 1 am. I slept through my shots, I no longer have Astronomy to wake me up for. Blah...

Plans for the weekend:
Tonight - nothing as of yet. Most likely going to hang out with Robert.
Tomorrow - Tim is having a b-day party on the beach.
Satruday - Going to Hallowscream with my Aunt, brother, etc.
Sunday - Nothing good. Football game on ESPN. USF vs. Cinnciniti

So yesterday I told you I had an interview...which I did. I went to that interview, and waited...and waited...and waited. Finally the lady talked to me, and was asking me questions, then she told me 'We'll get back with you in a couple of weeks' which most likely means 'We won't hire you unless the only other person to hire is a sex offender...and we'll consider him over you anyways.' Why? All because of fucking band. If I wasn't in band then I wouldn't have to worry about not being able to work on certian days, because of it. God darn it.

Oh...speaking of God...I'll get to that later.

Right...so after my interview I began studying...no, lie...after my interview Jenna grabbed me to go help her figure out her schedule, then at 4:30 I began studying. I studied for a few hours, then I went to the Marshall Center to wait for Robert to get off work, and studied there. I went outside at about seven, and took a break, trying to figure out my schedule for Spring 2007. I got that figured out: Crime and Justice in America, Wind Ensemble, Comp II, Liberal Arts, and Classical Mythology.

Anyways...there was the CIA...or Christians In Action there...singing...and making noise. It was terrible singing...really really bad. It gave me a headache. I sat there for a bit, waiting still. Then finally...Robert came out. He got me pizza. Yeah!

Anyways...went back to my room shortly after that and studied again...while watching South Park, which meant I watched more south park then studied. I got through all of Season 1...started season 2. Went to bed at 4, after some bull shit at 3:19 (exactaly) where one of the girls (most likely this bitch Laura that no one likes) tore down another girls halloween decorations. We think she's the one that's been ripping down all her pictures, and shit, because they're fighting. It's so stupid. I'm sick of it.

So anyways...went to sleep. Woke up 40 minutes late, had to do my paper, did my paper, went to class, class was over. In the library now, and I was talking to my mom. This is where God comes in.

I was talking to my mom about beliefs and what not...saying I wasn't very religious and that I believed in like, a mixture of Chritsianity, Catholicism, and Scientology. I hung up with her shortly after, and when I was reading my e-mail this lady stands up beside me, and places a notepad on my little desk. On the notepad it reads:

Yeah...that's what it said. Plus her phone number and e-mail address which I'll leave off for her own privacy. She was like, "I Couldn't help but overhear...", and then gave me a tap on the shoulder with her fist, as she walked away with a smile. As soon as she was out of hearing distance I began to laugh.

Eh...religion...it's so...headachy.

Well, I'm gonna study some more for Sociology before my mid-term today. Adios.

So, congratulations to me for not smoking at all Monday. Yes, that's right. I didn't. ^^ Let's see, what happened Monday after I posted that. My interview went well, quite well. The hiring manager was like 'I like you! I liked you the first time you stopped in the store.' I was like that's good. I have another interview today at 2:30 with a different manager, today is supposed to tell me if I get the job or not. That's good, right?

However, bad news is I will only be going home for a day and a half for Thanksgiving. After dinner on Turkey Day I will be driving back up to Tampa to work on Black Friday. Hooray...

Other news. Other news. I kissed Robert, on his break. Then went to the interview. Band practice was good, except for the whole we have to 'fall dead' at the end of song 2/3, and ...the ground...is so...dirty. Ew. I was like...having an OCD attack while on the ground. It was gross. Other than that it was fine. I scrubbed clean afterwards though, felt sooo good to be clean. I watched t.v. last night for the first time in a long time. Comedy Central. Was great! I miss it. Tonight/today after my interview I will be forcing myself to study all night. No stopping (minus potty breaks and food) for Sociology. I have my test tomorrow.

Today...oh...today. It has been intresting thus far. Suprinsingly I'm still in a good mood even though I went to the advisor to talk to them about my scheduling and now...now, gah. They were like 'You're still pre-engeneering' and I'm like 'no...I'm not' because I took care of that. Supposedly they didn't. Stupid school, geez. I got it fixed, for the most part now. I had to re join the engineering college in order to get re-transfered over to undecided and then leave and go back to the other place in order to get what I needed. I have to walk in at 1. Hopefully it will all get worked out.

Anyways. Schedule planning has officially arrived. Hooray. I'm planing my spring semester now. WooHoo. I'll update on what it is later.